Peace on Earth, and Mercy Mild

Merry Christmas! That’s right, I am wishing you a Merry Christmas. I’ve been thinking a lot this holiday season about some of the religious symbolism behind Christmas. I’m not one who gets bothered or upset by it. I find a lot of beauty in it, and I see no need to replace Merry Christmas with…

Now I’m Done Believing You

Boyd K. Packer’s words have caused me tremendous pain over the years. As a teenager, his rhetoric and false statements about homosexuality caused me to feel alone, isolated, fearful, hateful, shamed, and self-loathing. I believe his statements and the statements of other LDS authorities contributed significantly and directly to my many periods of depression and…

Your Words are the Only Words

Before and shortly after Proposition 8 passed, facebook was my own personal hell because of the awful things my friends at BYU and elsewhere said about the Proposition, about homosexuality, and about marriage. My newsfeed was a charged minefield, so this week when the Proposition was overturned, I braced myself for the onslaught of negative…

Somewhere Along in the Bitterness

Please light another candle tonight for all of those gay Mormons who have taken their own lives. I am deeply saddened by the gay Mormon suicides this month (apparently there were three), and I feel a sense of failure for their losses even though I didn’t know them. Could I have made myself and my…

They’ve Got Us Pinned Terribly

Michael and I planned our wedding almost entirely by ourselves, which was great because it allowed us to make the decisions we wanted to make. Our wedding was in every way our dream event. It was hard at first to plan the wedding because neither of us had a lot to go on. Growing up…

And They’ll Believe Us To, Soon

I’m so grateful for all of the congratulatory notes, facebook messages, cards, and gifts we got, but I am particularly pleased with those that came from active Mormons. So many active Mormons had supportive things to say during and after my wedding, and frankly, it surprised me. The messages came from people who didn’t have…

You Have Stolen My Heart

Today is my two-week-iversary. Michael and I were married two weeks ago today. In so many ways life has just gone on as normal. After nearly three years together, we know what to expect from each other. At the same time, there are a few things that feel very different. More than anything, I suddenly…