“We’d gather around all in a room, fasten our belts, engage in dialogue. We’d all slow down, rest without guilt, not lie without fear, disagree sans judgment.”
Remember that angry email I got back in February? Today I got a response from her. I was shocked.
First I want to apologize to you for the hateful and angry email I wrote to you in February. It was a reflection of untempered emotions and frustration. I feel like I’ve grown a lot since then.
You wrote me about two months ago about a topic that has been on my mind a lot. I’m seeking to better understand the gay experience in Mormon culture. I was wondering if you would be willing to meet with me.
I would understand if you are hesitant, I was pretty caustic toward you previously. I want to apologize for being angry or emotional. One thing I’ve learned is that in order to truly love others, you have to bridle you passions in many ways.
Isn’t that crazy? I don’t even know what to say. Of course I’m willing to meet with her as I promised in my initial response to her, but to be honest I never thought she would be willing to meet with me. And now I’m scarred out of my mind. My response to her was composed through hours of carefully placing words. In a face to face conversation, how can I ever hope to be eloquent enough to keep my cool and actually forge a positive relationship?
I haven’t felt like this since my trainer in the mission set up an appointment with an evangelical minister and then went on exchanges with another Elder the day of the appointment leaving me with another young Elder to face “the enemy.” I have facebook stalked this girl, and she is a graduate student studying Marriage, Family, and Human development. She is still passionate about opposing gay marriage and homosexuality in general. I think when I reply to her I will ask her if we can focus on cultural/social aspects of homosexuality and Mormonism and leave out talk of politics. I don’t want to debate this girl, I want to get to know her (and mostly have her get to know me and see that I have no horns).
I guess this is what I get for going public with the paper.
Advice? Talk me out of it? Any of you have experience in being a gay diplomat? (cough, Scot) Help!
“We would stay and respond and expand and include and allow and forgive and enjoy and evolve and discern and inquire and accept and admit and divulge and open and reach out and speak up” (Alanis Morissette, Utopia).